The Foot Trip Has Begun
From audio journal episode  AJE-2009-05-01-10-15.
Good morning. It’s 10:15 AM on Friday, May 1st, 2009. The trip to Philly is underway. I’m on the train right now. It’s a gray, cloudy day, probably in the 50s somewhere. Kinda warm but kinda not.
Let’s see. I had a couple Egg McMuffins for breakfast just to head off any hunger I might have before we reach Philadelphia.
I’m excited. Everything’s all packed. I have my Victor Reader Stream with me obviously, which is what I’m recording on right now. I have my iPod, which I’m going to get out here in a few minutes. I’ve left a message for Emmy to call me whenever she gets a moment; apparently she was out somewhere when I called her just a few minutes ago, to let her know that I’m on the train.
I think it’s been five years since my last visit to Philly. So I’m excited to see what’s going on down there. I have my 22 SEPTA tokens with me that I purchased while still living in Philly in 2001. So, I shouldn’t run low on transportation dollars this weekend.
Well, the foot party is tomorrow night and I’m excited and a little anxious about it. A little nervous definitely. I feel like this is one of those times in life where I’m standing on the edge of a deep precipice of change. The last time I had this feeling was when I was contemplating quitting my job some six years ago.
I believe that this weekend is going to change my life. It will certainly change the way I go about getting my rocks off. I hope I find that this trip is worthwhile and that I leave this weekend knowing that when I really want the sort of positive and intimate interaction with beautiful women that I so desire, that I now have the means to get it, at will. I’ll no longer have to wait for fate or chance to bring the women to me.
Even though this means that I’ve got to spend some significant dollars to get down there and to get in the door, this is worth the increased control of who’s in my life that I’ll get.
True. Making money isn’t easy. But fortunately, the work I did during my fifteen years in corporate America and paying into Social Security, guarantees me a nice little piece of the money pie for the rest of my life. If I’m fortunate enough to restore some of the income I had as a software engineer, as a blog writer today, then that’s what I’ll do. It will help fund these erotic outings.
But if I don’t get rich, my money situation isn’t that bad as it is. I can live comfortably on what I’m getting. Even with my current income, I have enough money to get away to Philly now and then. I can afford these foot parties.
My biggest concern though, is that I’m going to get down to this thing, and there won’t be any women there that really turn me on. There are a few pictures of women that they posted on their web site that appear more than adequate for igniting my libido. But pictures only tell so much, and the success of the party will depend largely on which of these ladies is actually there. I may not find what I’m looking for; at least, not at this particular party. But at least the chances of finding her there seem far higher than they’ve proven to be for me in other social venues.
So in spite of the possible no-yield outcome, I still feel good about this trip. I know that this is going to be a big step forward, and I’ll do everything I can to make the most of it. [Jack] and I are going to talk about things this weekend, and I’m going to take some notes of the experience and how he goes about this, because I think I’m joining his ranks. Perhaps I can learn from him how to get the sorts of intimate encounters into my life that I so want, with the women that I most desire.
I have the emotional support and companionship that I’ve always wanted, from [Emmy]. She is fulfilling a great need that I have for someone who talks to me regularly, and so I certainly don’t want to give her up. But at the same time, I want some physical pleasure too, which I just don’t have with her. I hope she can come to terms with this.
But I’ve discussed this at length before. I’m just reiterating it hoping to find a better angle to view this than what I have currently. But I don’t know if I will find such an improved angle. I really doubt it.
The train is now passing through the PPG area in Tipton, PA, and you can hear the whistle blowing in the background. That’s our Amtrak train whistle.
I didn’t get to sleep until 3:30 this morning. I was posting on the Blind Chit Chat list. They do flex you. There are lots of conservatives out there, and I don’t know if I’ve changed anybody with my posts. So far, all I’ve managed to do is to stir things up. But that’s okay. At least I’m saying things that people are getting stirred up about. At least I have that ability. It gets them to think a little; at least it exposes them to my views, even if it polarizes them in their positions.
So I don’t have any grand illusions about doing this. That is: I’m certainly not expecting that I, Tom Hesley, am going to change the world a whole lot; but maybe, just a little with my writing. Perhaps if I could just nudge society toward liberalism a bit more, that would be grand. Besides, posting on these lists gives me lots of good reasons to practice writing and it energizes my passion to write. So this list is a good outlet for me to practice on and to be exposed to other views myself.
I must however, keep the true objective of my political posts in mind, which is to influence and sway; not to browbeat and humiliate those who disagree with me. I’ve scored no victory if I outwit or outsmart my opponent in a debate and show him to be the fool that he might be. Humiliating him is not my objective. No, the real objective is to persuade him to be on my side. So I really must retain a calm, level-headed approach in these posts because some of my readers were actually cussing at me. I did good and kept above the fray though because I didn’t cuss at anyone in return and called no one any names. I treated them all with candor but tempered that with respect.
By the time I get up to 2009 in my transcribing the emails I’ve sent, there’ll be all kinds of posts to add from the discussions I’ve engaged in on these lists. I hope to eventually add everything I’ve written to the blogs including my emails, journals, voice mails, and other types of correspondence in which I’ve engaged through the years, with some editing of course, to make them read better. But the basic ideas of the posts shall remain the same.
The train is now at Tyrone, PA. That was fast.
The work on the blogs is going well. I’m doing a lot of writing, transcribing, a lot of uploading, and I’m starting to get things in order and generating a lot of content.
Woop, there’s my phone. It’s probably Emmy calling me back. So I’ll pick this up later. Stand by.
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Okay. I’m back. Yes, that was [Emmy] and I let her know that we just passed Tyrone.
So anyway, I was talking about the foot party coming up this weekend, and not only am I going to be there, but I’ll get a chance to spend some time with [Kar]. Time with her has always been fun; at least it has been the last three times we were together in 1999, 2000, and 2002. So it’s been about seven years since I did anything sexual with her. But I’m looking forward to it, hoping that she’s up for a new encounter. But if she’s not, no big deal, because I’ll still have the party to attend tomorrow night, to get the foot fix that I’m traveling there for. I have options.
And you know, that’s the key thing in life, to keep your options open, isn’t it. Make sure that you have lots of them. Hopefully, the foot party will give me plenty of desirable alternatives that will show me on a very deep level that I do have options and that there’s no need to do without and thirst for the feet of a beautiful woman if I can just come down here once in a while and get that thirst satisfied.
So the trip is in progress and I’ll keep you informed periodically throughout the weekend of how everything’s going. So stand by.
Tom Hesley