More Thoughts on Work; Past and Future
Sunday, January 16th, 2005Consider that work would be easier this time around because I’d not be home-based. I won’t do that again. I’d have the more orthodox working routine, where I’d get up every weekday at 6:00 and leave for the office at 7:00 and get there by 8:00. Then leave for home at 5:00. It wasn’t all bad when I worked in Dayton, and I do miss that part of the routine. While I worked at the main campus, things were for the most part good. Not perfect, but quite good, except that I couldn’t get a desirable woman. There were the trying times (especially with LJ). But once that finished in 1989 into 1990, life got pretty nice.
Now people did expect more of me than I felt comfortable giving, and that used to bug me although that didn’t happen too often. The only time I remember this was in the early 90s.
But once I came into my own in 1994 with the delivery of the MailMan document delivery system, I went until at least 1998 as a highly respected and esteemed leader in the development community.
Of course, that scathing employee survey changed all that, but not for long. Once I recovered, and the Y2K remediation work got hot, I shined once again until 2001 when we started working on CM.
Many of the hardships spun off from my home-based status because interacting with people face-to-face could not easily be done. Without that frequent interaction, I found it difficult to learn about the new system designs. Then too, I suspected when I first became home-based that career stagnation would be likely, although at the time, I was so eager to move to Philadelphia that I didn’t care, and went anyway.
In short, I can’t blame all my woes on my last job. Some of them resulted entirely from choices I made. I wanted to be home-based, and I’ll always be grateful to them for allowing it. Not that I want to be _home_ necessarily. But I did want to live in Philadelphia, where things were accessible. Unfortunately, that meant eventually giving up any opportunities for career advancement at the home office.
Perhaps I need to reconsider my feelings toward working outside the home for an employer. Right now, the idea distresses me. But since many of the problems at the last job originated in my home-based status, and since I would not be home-based in future full-time jobs, maybe a new job wouldn’t be as tough as I remember the final two years of my last one being. And, to be honest, if I was a boss in software development, I wouldn’t hire anyone home-based. I’d insist that they be at work at least two days out of every week.
Now I wanted to make as much money as I could. Periodic raises assured me that I was appreciated and valued. I had to fight in 2000 to get the raises I should have been getting between 1993 and 2000. That fight went on for several years and may have contributed to my weariness of playing the corporate work game longer than I did.
Well, I’m rambling at this point. But given my fifteen year run at the last job, I learned much, and got used to a decent salary. But since leaving, I’m living with Mom, and I’m poor (relatively speaking). I don’t think I wish to live the rest of my life here in Altoona. Again, the need for making tough decisions is upon me this year, that must be met soon. What am I going to do with the rest of my life?
Here in Altoona, I have virtually no accessibility to desirable women. There’s virtually no one on the dating services I’ve examined, whom I want. Perhaps I should change my operating environment again. Perhaps once more, I must move to a place where they are more accessible. However, going where the ladies are won’t guarantee me a warm bed with a lovely woman in it.
True, I was in Philly. But meeting them as I did at bars and on busses just wasn’t working. I spent many an evening at Michael’s Café’ drinking, hoping that She’d come in. Well nowadays, even if I went to the big city, I wouldn’t seek to meet anyone in bars, as I no longer drink.
More later,
Tom Hesley